Interesting paper... I'm sorry, Angel, still

How could I mess up so so much ...again?!?! Shoulda kill myself for such stupidity. I've found the right ansver in HBR, but too late...

I was reading(browsing the pdf...) Harward Business Review (December 2007) yesterday. Including the article Making Relationships Work - a conversation with psychologist John M. Gottman. It is interesting that relationships in business (not so much with the customers than between employees) are not studied much and not for a long time. But family relationships are studied very much and peoples behaviors at home and at workplace do not differ as much as we'd like to think.
I'm writing about this pacific article not because other articles are worse, no. I'm writing about it right now, because I red this article too late for about a week :(
The quote I should have been red earlier:
I had this funny experience when I sold my book The Seven Principles for Making Marriage Work to my publisher. I met with the head of marketing department, a young guy who leaned back in his chair as if he were not at all impressed by any of my work. He pointed his finger at me and said, "All right, tell me one thing in the next 30 seconds that I can do to improve my marriage right now!" I told him that if I were to pick just one thing it would be to honor his wifes dreams. The guy jumped up, put on his coat, and left the room. I found out months later that he had immediately hopped on the subway to Brooklyn, where he surprised his wife, who was at home with a young baby. Her mouth dropped when he asked her what her dreams were. He told me later that she thought he would never ask.
Did you ever think why this guy didn't ask this question before. He loved his wife, he cared about her, then why? Nobody taught him - he'd never got the idea himself. Our parents did so bad job, that we can't have normal healthy relationships without advises of psychologist?! Thanks, mom :( I'm sooo sorry I did not red this article just one damned week earlier.
I'm sorry, Angel. I really did not know that such "little" things matters soooo much to you. How could I know that this is the most important thing?!? I could have made my life better, if I'd know. I felt sthg like that for some time, but this feeling was systematically killed in me all of my life... You know, if something is told to you for many many times, you start to believe it is true even if you know that it is not.
And if I had red this article I'd take the jacket with me that evening and would not catch this small buzzy cold on holidays ;)
Angel, I'm still afraid of losing you - this is the right way to lose you... Forgive me, please. I beg you for a tiny bit of security/stability. We could spend this time so much better for both of us than we do it now... And we never know how much time we have... please...